Normally, when I'm down or thinking too much I usually have violent thoughts of me being beaten down and dragged around. To me, it's always been some strange mental relief system. Instead of harming myself physically I take it out on myself in a controlled environment; similar to when people pound their head to a wall.
Recently, I've been having these thoughts of me just evaporating, turning into steam. I don't know what's worse. Me wanting to dissipate or when I use to think of myself being beaten...
Maybe these two conditions are different...I'm not sure. Maybe after the next two weeks, I can breath a little.
-David M.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
1s and 0s
Sometimes I wish I was more of a machine than anything else. I can't help, but to think in this mindset more than usual because I'm taking 2 programming classes at the moment. I enjoy shades of great, but sometimes life would be simpler if it was just black and white; 1s and 0s.
A working regiment in where I can manage myself to be on task, on time. I don't know what I'm talking about, really. I like the metaphoric use of 1s and 0s. Maybe I'm just dabbing an idea for another piece of creative writing relating to that. I haven't written in a while. :(
-David M.
A working regiment in where I can manage myself to be on task, on time. I don't know what I'm talking about, really. I like the metaphoric use of 1s and 0s. Maybe I'm just dabbing an idea for another piece of creative writing relating to that. I haven't written in a while. :(
-David M.
Warmup: The Semester Thus Far...
It's been a while since I've written here. A couple things I should pen down, but I'm going to do some warm up exercises. What better exercise than to write about school.
Weight Lifting: The class is somewhat easy compared to aerobics. She doesn't expect us to be raging testosterone loaded guys. Which allows me workout on a more comfortable manner. It doesn't mean I'm not pushing myself, I am; slowly. She's also an energetic instructor, so, it's not as dead as aerobics.
Independent Study (Electronic Visualization): The concept of EV was never interesting till I actually taken a course under Daniel. It was adventurous and new. It still is, but I haven't really found a drive for it this semester. I'm looking forward to pushing myself with this coming project, but the architects seems a bit unprepared.
Analog Photography: This class has taken a toll on me the most. I do work from the class every weekend. Shane is a cool fellow, he's out there, he works us like dogs. I can't understand how someone that seem so laid back could give out so much work.
Aerobics: Every time I step out of this class, I'm drenched in sweat. I think most of the benefits of working out is coming from this class. Even though she could be more energetic about teaching the class that would be great.
Contemporary Art History: Not one redeeming quality about the class. Should just bring a pillow in there, and call it a day.
Smart Art: Things are getting interesting, but it seems like the class has been dragging behind so much. I can't stay awake in there. Drew is a pretty nice professor, I wished the class was more engaging, but there are limitations.
-David M.
Weight Lifting: The class is somewhat easy compared to aerobics. She doesn't expect us to be raging testosterone loaded guys. Which allows me workout on a more comfortable manner. It doesn't mean I'm not pushing myself, I am; slowly. She's also an energetic instructor, so, it's not as dead as aerobics.
Independent Study (Electronic Visualization): The concept of EV was never interesting till I actually taken a course under Daniel. It was adventurous and new. It still is, but I haven't really found a drive for it this semester. I'm looking forward to pushing myself with this coming project, but the architects seems a bit unprepared.
Analog Photography: This class has taken a toll on me the most. I do work from the class every weekend. Shane is a cool fellow, he's out there, he works us like dogs. I can't understand how someone that seem so laid back could give out so much work.
Aerobics: Every time I step out of this class, I'm drenched in sweat. I think most of the benefits of working out is coming from this class. Even though she could be more energetic about teaching the class that would be great.
Contemporary Art History: Not one redeeming quality about the class. Should just bring a pillow in there, and call it a day.
Smart Art: Things are getting interesting, but it seems like the class has been dragging behind so much. I can't stay awake in there. Drew is a pretty nice professor, I wished the class was more engaging, but there are limitations.
-David M.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Summer Break
Last week of summer, is my only summer break. It ends up being rainy, I have a couple errands to run, a couple of days I have to be on campus, I hit the curb on my bike and skid my knees. Couldn't ask for a more enjoyable summer break. As said in, Last Life in the Universe, "this is bliss"
-David M.
-David M.
Morningstar: The End
At first I felt a bit out of place working in the office, a bit too white collar for me. Like all things, they grow on me; I think I get sentimental over things a bit too easily. I ended up liking to work there. Despite sometimes the task seems a bit outrageous and even annoying, it really helped me out a lot in learning from errors and how to approach them. I still have such a long way to go. My work performance has actually led the team to not wanting to let me go; I'm glad I made that big of difference in their work flow. I would miss them, even if they do poke fun of me for missing them, I do.
The funniest thing about my last day would had been at around 2:30, I asked them for more work since I finished everything I was given for the last 3 days. They laughed so hard, and they joked about me staying overtime and working till 11:59 P.M. so, Friday can literally be my last day. In the end we had cupcakes, and I was off.
I'm glad that they would welcome me back with open arms, when I have the time. Morningstar is my fallback plan at the moment now.
-David M.
The funniest thing about my last day would had been at around 2:30, I asked them for more work since I finished everything I was given for the last 3 days. They laughed so hard, and they joked about me staying overtime and working till 11:59 P.M. so, Friday can literally be my last day. In the end we had cupcakes, and I was off.
I'm glad that they would welcome me back with open arms, when I have the time. Morningstar is my fallback plan at the moment now.
-David M.
SIGGRAPH 2009 - New Orleans
The great thing about these professional conferences is the people you meet and the things be presented, but more so the people. However, at times it can be a bit depressing. A lot of people have a lot to show for themselves, and some have not. I'm in the lower bracket. Though, I felt I have gone a long way since last year, I'm wondering if I'm capable of breaking into the industry in say the next 5 years or so. I'm hoping this year I build up my portfolio/demo reel for next year's job fair.
Meeting David Chung from Morningstar kind of gave me the motivation for moving out West, he made it seem like it wasn't a huge transition; I hope not. I've always made a few possible networking possibilities in the West coast as well.
New Orleans is a great place to visit. Despite the muggy and bi-polar weather is a walking city, which I like about it. Is not too commercialized either, the scene is very local which I like a lot. Of course there is Bourbon street, rather you're a saint or a sinner you must have walked down there out of curiosity.
However, one thing I didn't like about the whole experience was one room mate, who was such a downer; he was the youngest of all of us. Even the oldest guy in the room was a child at heart. I see a bit of the old me in him, but I don't know how I changed so much in the last couple of years. I did however gave him a whole bunch of sarcastic criticism. I hope that helps.
-David M.
Meeting David Chung from Morningstar kind of gave me the motivation for moving out West, he made it seem like it wasn't a huge transition; I hope not. I've always made a few possible networking possibilities in the West coast as well.
New Orleans is a great place to visit. Despite the muggy and bi-polar weather is a walking city, which I like about it. Is not too commercialized either, the scene is very local which I like a lot. Of course there is Bourbon street, rather you're a saint or a sinner you must have walked down there out of curiosity.
However, one thing I didn't like about the whole experience was one room mate, who was such a downer; he was the youngest of all of us. Even the oldest guy in the room was a child at heart. I see a bit of the old me in him, but I don't know how I changed so much in the last couple of years. I did however gave him a whole bunch of sarcastic criticism. I hope that helps.
-David M.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
The Return
I come back and I have a ton of stuff to read. Compared to the last month or so, my feed has been bare. Felt like I missed a lot of news when I got back.
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