The Suitcase

Watching last night's episode of Mad Men made me realize a few things. I mean things that were already on my mind, but it made me realize how strong these thoughts actually are. I openly admit how silly a topic may seem, especially when you compare life to a television show. However, there is a difference between good writing and just over fascination; Mad Men is not the later. In this episode, after a few self struggle, you really see the main character Don Draper hit the bottom of the barrel and completely detached from reality. Why? Not willing to face reality? It's hard to face reality when one falls from grace. Despite still having what makes him the man he is, he is still at a lost. What does that all mean? He is who he is, still charming, skilled and he is who he is, the face of the agency. However, he does not face his losses. Till last night's episode which is probably the best episode in the season by far.

I did a little self-reflecting as I was watching the scene where Don breaks down. I thought to myself, a man isn't a man until he has faced humility. However, that may sound we all have to face it sometime, it's only natural that we lose a battle, even more than one. Accepting that loss is all about becoming better. In the new season, you see that he isn't willing to accept his loss he's going about in a self-destructive manner which in the end made him hit rock bottom, but like they say all clouds have a silver lining. We make light of these situations and we come out of these things better people.

I too felt like I've fallen off the high horse since graduation, life itself seems like a vast ocean now and the current can easily sweep me away. Trying to not think much of it, but the thought creeps up on you and it becomes strange. I've been a little off in my habits, but I've been getting myself back on a regiment. I have to push myself, spruce myself, and in the end better myself. Life is a dark place, but there are people out there that lighten things up.

-David M.

Life

I probably say this too often, but I feel like life is like a television series. A well written script and cast of interesting and not so interesting character. Sometimes the plot is predictable and sometimes it comes out of left field. If we were to diagram events of our lives, we'll find a string of interesting information. I have been saying recently, "it's a new season, new cast, new everything."

I feel like this is going to be a reboot of my story. People are different, more so than they seem. I understand things so much more. A new scene to be filmed, a new story to tell. The last couple months has seem a bit different for me. I think it's because I have been going about things differently and I did enjoy the events of the summer very much. I can't wait to see how the next couple months unfold. What twist will arise. Who is returning, who is new, who is just making a cameo. A new season has started and it's completely different from any other.

-David M.

The Return: A String of Thoughts to Live By

Just thoughts that have been sitting around. Maybe I should share...

In my moments of weakness I realize I have to be stronger.
We all have our demons, we have to know what they are.
We all have seen the light, but how many of us has turned around to see the shadow it casts?
Perspiration is the result of how much work we put into things physically, tears is the result of how much work we put into things emotionally.
Bricks make nice walls.
If you fall, you are the only one to pick yourself up.

I should write these down as they come instead of banking it on memory.

-David M.

Spring 10: In A Nutshell [The End of an Era]

To all the people I wasn't able to catch after the ceremony I want to say, "It has been a pleasure, good luck and keep in touch."

Normally, I write about my classes and a short reflection, but this note today is all about reflecting.

Most of you might know this and most of your probably do not, but I am quite the sentimentalist I'll miss everyone of you guys dearly; sincerely, I mean it. I really do. It's been less than 24 hours since I graduated and I feel like I have said good bye to a huge portion of my life. I would like to thank all of you who made my day (you know who you are) and for those who think they do; keeping thinking that. I kid, I kid.

One thing I have noticed in my personality is that I am quite sarcastic and sometimes (yes, I am aware) I can say things that sound down right mean. However, not once has it been used as slander. People have told me I am a genuine person and that's nice to know, despite what I believe is crap I give them all the time I still maintain a really good relationship with them For that I am grateful, sometimes I found myself really hard to deal with and for those who have such great tolerance I commend you for it.

I want to write something long and elaborate, but I do not want to bore you. I enjoyed my time at UIC and you wonder why of all places? It really was not the university that made me feel proud of where I was, it was the people. Maybe I don't give myself enough credit, but I surely give people a lot. I never thought of myself as anything more than just a regular person; not worth noticing. You guys have definitely noticed my traits and embraced it, help me mold it and master it. I wouldn't be the person I am today if not for all of you. If not for your insight and support I would have not have the courage to go where I wanted to go in life. I hope that as I leave UIC I meet others that are as great, supportive, humorous, warm, and open (I would like to include charming) as you all. I will really miss everything about the University and I hope that feeling is reciprocated as well.

Sincerely and Grateful,
-David Scott Mei

Is It So Wrong To Love Foggy Weather?

Monday and Saturday were great, the city was covered in fog. I've never been so happy to be enclosed in such a fog. A question arose about what's there to like about the fog, you can't see anything. I gave it a long hard thought and to answer it as poetically as I can.

"The great thing about fog is, you know what is there. You're certain of it, but something is obstructing your view and it isn't yourself."

-David M.

What You See Ain't Always What You Get

Thoughts and Quotes:

"How can something seem so close yet not within reach?"
As I was looking at the stars and the moon.

"Can you really forgive a man for killing his own heart?"
As I was walking home in the middle of the night.

"The phone keeps ringing, but no one is on the other side"
Stupid telemarketers

I realize I need to start finding friends that are single. Everyone I normally hang out with is in a relationship.

-David M.

A Hurdle, A Clearing, A Hurdle

Seems like this week might seem like there is some breathing room. Maybe not so much breathing room, but things to do seem a lot less in comparison to last week. Nonetheless everything is boiling to a nice fine point. I hope things end well by the end of the semester. I don't know how to plan this semester...too many things in front of me and I don't what I should hold on to.

-David M.