Woke up a bit of an optimistic today as I head out the door, it seem like it'll be an interesting day. (For the record it was) Though, my morning class was canceled today, I still left at my normal time, for some other tasks at hand. Also, to spend some time in the digital lab doing some prints for quality control. As I was in AARCC I dwindled around to kill some time for the clock to strike 11, but roughly I received an email from my photo teacher that class was canceled cause he too, was struck with illness and I was stranded with time on campus; my next class wouldn't start till 4.
So, how did I spend my wondrous afternoon? In the digital photo lab, doing prints. I find myself doubting my choice of colors in that class, but I guess I need to bite the bullet if I try to prove myself, so, lets hope that crit goes well on Thursday. Though, as productive as I can be I was still left with some odd hours at hand, which I just wasted the rest like any hours. I realized I never have the energy to stay awake in my 4 O'clock class, which is sad I guess, but the professor never complains cause she knows I have a good handle on the material.
As much as I love rain, and as much as I hate the rain when I commute I was able to find some middle ground with it today. The light drizzle that etches the surrounding makes the rain seem more tranquil, but it could have been less windy.
-David M.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
A Girl Shouldn't Smoke
A Girl Shouldn’t Smoke
She places the filter between her lips.
A flicker of the lighter and she inhale.
It creeps to back and moves its back to the front.
Out comes the smoke; clouding her in sophistication.
The accumulation of stress causes her to be the mistress,
Where on occasions she takes a step out, and tries to ingest a moment of relaxation.
Clouded fatigue and dull grey eyes,
Life could only be harmonized for a short five minutes.
Pressing her lips to kiss distress, like a moment of intimacy seen on the screen.
They’re lovers, but she’s slowly taking the life out of him.
Their lips part, and she holds puts the light aside between two fingers with much vanity.
Only to flick off the excess ashes, to lighten her load.
Glancing from the side of my eyes,
Curiosity is best describe, why I can’t look away,
Yet without a word to say.
Slowly peaking into intimacy as the smoke caress her.
Though my eyes could not look away, I was not impressed.
As the smoke confine her fine lines, clouded scars, and hid reality.
She stares at the haze like an old friend,
And slowly watches them depart; never to been seen again.
She takes the last drag, the ashes memorialized itself.
Flicking the filter aside, she steps back in, only to come back again.
She places the filter between her lips.
A flicker of the lighter and she inhale.
It creeps to back and moves its back to the front.
Out comes the smoke; clouding her in sophistication.
The accumulation of stress causes her to be the mistress,
Where on occasions she takes a step out, and tries to ingest a moment of relaxation.
Clouded fatigue and dull grey eyes,
Life could only be harmonized for a short five minutes.
Pressing her lips to kiss distress, like a moment of intimacy seen on the screen.
They’re lovers, but she’s slowly taking the life out of him.
Their lips part, and she holds puts the light aside between two fingers with much vanity.
Only to flick off the excess ashes, to lighten her load.
Glancing from the side of my eyes,
Curiosity is best describe, why I can’t look away,
Yet without a word to say.
Slowly peaking into intimacy as the smoke caress her.
Though my eyes could not look away, I was not impressed.
As the smoke confine her fine lines, clouded scars, and hid reality.
She stares at the haze like an old friend,
And slowly watches them depart; never to been seen again.
She takes the last drag, the ashes memorialized itself.
Flicking the filter aside, she steps back in, only to come back again.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
More Reflections than a Broken Mirror
In this little social realm I like to call college, I have met impeding challenges and so far I have been able to face each encounter with satisfactory results (Asian satisfactory results I mind you). Though, I can't help but feel anxious whenever a new challenge arises, could it be that this obstacle will be the one to snuff me out, and down for the count? or is this some sadistic torture I like to put myself through in order to stay focus. This past week I've stayed on campus till 10pm on Tuesday and 7 the following day, and I end at 7 on Thursday, and after all that I find myself in front of my desk slaving away? Though it turned out the midterm wasn't so bad, at least I hope I didn't do bad. However, those were not the only hurdles I had to put myself through this week, though lets say that was the bulk.
This week, will prove to be another funtastic adventure, though I got most of the obstacles out of the way, I still have a lot of things to go through this week, but it seems more feasible now (maybe cause I spent my whole weekend on it, and nothing else.) Though hopefully, I figure out this EV assignment by tomorrow and I'll be a happy camper.
I find it funny how I always complain about school life when is never that bad, at least I can get through it. However, I find myself conflicted with myself. I've been told I'm not a bad person, but why do I keep thinking I'm a bad person? This social cues have been playing in my head and I never seem to act upon them because I always come back to the same conclusion, I'm awkward, but when I tell people this, they think I'm too critical of myself because I'm really not that "awkward." Then why do I usually find myself conflicting with other's say? Do I have an alter ego or that I just can't see myself in any other light? (For those that are reading, I'm not schizophrenic or depressed) Just sometimes I really don't know what kind of person I am, and what I am doing is really benefiting the people around me or hurting them.
I don't know why I think these things, but for some reason I think I'm going to end up like one of those workaholic type of guys that will live a relatively successful hermit life. Also, on a lighter note I'm starting to write again, and hopefully start putting together, some beautiful mental images for people to read soon.
-David M.
This week, will prove to be another funtastic adventure, though I got most of the obstacles out of the way, I still have a lot of things to go through this week, but it seems more feasible now (maybe cause I spent my whole weekend on it, and nothing else.) Though hopefully, I figure out this EV assignment by tomorrow and I'll be a happy camper.
I find it funny how I always complain about school life when is never that bad, at least I can get through it. However, I find myself conflicted with myself. I've been told I'm not a bad person, but why do I keep thinking I'm a bad person? This social cues have been playing in my head and I never seem to act upon them because I always come back to the same conclusion, I'm awkward, but when I tell people this, they think I'm too critical of myself because I'm really not that "awkward." Then why do I usually find myself conflicting with other's say? Do I have an alter ego or that I just can't see myself in any other light? (For those that are reading, I'm not schizophrenic or depressed) Just sometimes I really don't know what kind of person I am, and what I am doing is really benefiting the people around me or hurting them.
I don't know why I think these things, but for some reason I think I'm going to end up like one of those workaholic type of guys that will live a relatively successful hermit life. Also, on a lighter note I'm starting to write again, and hopefully start putting together, some beautiful mental images for people to read soon.
-David M.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Too Much Down Time
Shortly after summer break started I've become immediately bored. Well, not bored to be precise I have plenty of things on my hand to twiddle the time away, but the fact that I'm twiddling time away is the part that I can't stand. Unless I'm doing something productive I feel like I'm wasting time, there must a name for this kind of mentality.
Though, it is good to pick up a game, or watch a movie from time to time, but the consistent nagging of my thoughts saying I could do something much more while is what takes the fun away from it. I spent the last 3 days in my basement trying to beat a game before the week ends and trying to finish reading, "Welcome to the NHK" at the same time. I had 3 volumes of manga to read as of now, and a crap load of movies and anime episodes to catch up with.
I need to found a part time job...
-David M.
Though, it is good to pick up a game, or watch a movie from time to time, but the consistent nagging of my thoughts saying I could do something much more while is what takes the fun away from it. I spent the last 3 days in my basement trying to beat a game before the week ends and trying to finish reading, "Welcome to the NHK" at the same time. I had 3 volumes of manga to read as of now, and a crap load of movies and anime episodes to catch up with.
I need to found a part time job...
-David M.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Let the Days Stroll
The first few days of summer break seemed more hectic as the last days of school, but in a good way. My uncle Dan and aunt Pat came to visit all the way from California, so, it was a nice start to my break. His son works at Pixar and I asked him to see if I can get some internship info because that would be a sweet deal.
Anyways, I'll start with Monday. We had dim sum, and off the adults went to mill at work, and I was left with all the time in the world. I decided I'll stick with them for the morning hours, as we strolled all the way to US Cellular for a walk we stumbled upon a teen education event on "driving skills" though I thought the whole program was askew since the drivers were basically drifting and speeding, I think they were influencing a wrong group of people. Plus, we got yelled at for walking onto the course.
We then walked back to Chinatown and I showed them Ping Tom park, a place no tourist will ever stumble upon, and is a nice place to go.
Later on I dashed all the way to AARCC to squeeze in some hours and to the staff dinner. On the way to the dinner, with Elvin being the driver, we took a detour downtown and I was a movie guide pointing out various scenes of the new Dark Knight movie as we went down LaSalle, and when we made our way back to 290 it was comic book talk all the way, leaving Melissa out of the loop.
The dinner was fun, the food was great. Though my dumplings were a sad excuse of a dumpling. (I have failed you in the art of dumpling making father.)
That was all Monday folks.
The two days were a drag. After saying goodbye to my aunt and uncle Tuesday evening as they made their departure to Boston.
I really didn't anything productive the last 2 days, though I did dub this week R&R I feel like I should be doing something besides sleeping. I get restless when I'm not doing anything and bored when I'm doing something. I do have a strange logic don't I?
-David M.
Anyways, I'll start with Monday. We had dim sum, and off the adults went to mill at work, and I was left with all the time in the world. I decided I'll stick with them for the morning hours, as we strolled all the way to US Cellular for a walk we stumbled upon a teen education event on "driving skills" though I thought the whole program was askew since the drivers were basically drifting and speeding, I think they were influencing a wrong group of people. Plus, we got yelled at for walking onto the course.
We then walked back to Chinatown and I showed them Ping Tom park, a place no tourist will ever stumble upon, and is a nice place to go.
Later on I dashed all the way to AARCC to squeeze in some hours and to the staff dinner. On the way to the dinner, with Elvin being the driver, we took a detour downtown and I was a movie guide pointing out various scenes of the new Dark Knight movie as we went down LaSalle, and when we made our way back to 290 it was comic book talk all the way, leaving Melissa out of the loop.
The dinner was fun, the food was great. Though my dumplings were a sad excuse of a dumpling. (I have failed you in the art of dumpling making father.)
That was all Monday folks.
The two days were a drag. After saying goodbye to my aunt and uncle Tuesday evening as they made their departure to Boston.
I really didn't anything productive the last 2 days, though I did dub this week R&R I feel like I should be doing something besides sleeping. I get restless when I'm not doing anything and bored when I'm doing something. I do have a strange logic don't I?
-David M.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
The End, The Beginning
So given the context of the post is the end of the year. Yea! but before I can jump for joy and throw glitter all around, I had to get through the dreaded finals week. Given that I'm sure I did all fine and dandy, but the last stretch was a killer. Had a major headache the day before, and only manage to study about 8 hours for over 200 slides for an Art History final, and after taking the exam I was more than confident that I showed who was boss. Also, the fact I woke up at 5:30 am to get to school just to ensure that I will be there on time.
Following the festivities of enduring such a long and pointless exam it was still 10 in the morning. So, Aaron, Francisco and I decided to go downtown to Blicks and pick up some supplies. Francisco bought some paint and canvas (I'm hoping for him to paint sad clowns). Well, I bought an ink stone, ink stick, and some sumi ink. I'm planning to experiment with inks over the summer and hopefully do something sensational.
After all the rambling of the early morning I manage to get home at noon for a nap. Only to be awaken by loud rants from my brother who just stayed at home playing Warcraft for the the majority of his waking hours.
Push the arms on the clock a lot further, I went back to campus (a great way to end the school year, no?) to see the senior show. It was a lot better than I expected, a lot meaning I wasn't expecting a lot, but I was impress. Also, the punch and lemonade was great. Then off at 7 I go to get ready to see Iron Man with some other friends.
So Guo, Danny, Simon, and I went to see Iron Man catching the 9:15 show and getting there 5 minutes after the start of the trailer left us with no good seats, but I digress cause the movie was kick ass, given that it wasn't the graphic orgy I was thinking it was going to be. It heavily focused on character, a thing most people forget about heroes is that they're human beings and not just people with super powers to entertain us. After the movie while in the John I noticed something a tad odd. Someone apparently decided to go commando in the theater as I find a pair of tighty whiteys on the floor, which was probably soaked in urine.
Anyways, back home after a late night meal, and here I am writing a blog before noon. I should be sleeping in shouldn't I?
May 10, the start of summer break. So, what now given the ample time I have now to do whatever the hell I want. Well, definitely going to start biking daily again. Hopefully work at AARCC part time for the duration of the summer. Aside from that there is also Dragon Boat Racing, SIGGRAPH, get a weekend job, paint, photoshop, and probably get some readings in and some gaming time.
Hopefully this summer will be a great one, one which I progress instead of being lazy.
Following the festivities of enduring such a long and pointless exam it was still 10 in the morning. So, Aaron, Francisco and I decided to go downtown to Blicks and pick up some supplies. Francisco bought some paint and canvas (I'm hoping for him to paint sad clowns). Well, I bought an ink stone, ink stick, and some sumi ink. I'm planning to experiment with inks over the summer and hopefully do something sensational.
After all the rambling of the early morning I manage to get home at noon for a nap. Only to be awaken by loud rants from my brother who just stayed at home playing Warcraft for the the majority of his waking hours.
Push the arms on the clock a lot further, I went back to campus (a great way to end the school year, no?) to see the senior show. It was a lot better than I expected, a lot meaning I wasn't expecting a lot, but I was impress. Also, the punch and lemonade was great. Then off at 7 I go to get ready to see Iron Man with some other friends.
So Guo, Danny, Simon, and I went to see Iron Man catching the 9:15 show and getting there 5 minutes after the start of the trailer left us with no good seats, but I digress cause the movie was kick ass, given that it wasn't the graphic orgy I was thinking it was going to be. It heavily focused on character, a thing most people forget about heroes is that they're human beings and not just people with super powers to entertain us. After the movie while in the John I noticed something a tad odd. Someone apparently decided to go commando in the theater as I find a pair of tighty whiteys on the floor, which was probably soaked in urine.
Anyways, back home after a late night meal, and here I am writing a blog before noon. I should be sleeping in shouldn't I?
May 10, the start of summer break. So, what now given the ample time I have now to do whatever the hell I want. Well, definitely going to start biking daily again. Hopefully work at AARCC part time for the duration of the summer. Aside from that there is also Dragon Boat Racing, SIGGRAPH, get a weekend job, paint, photoshop, and probably get some readings in and some gaming time.
Hopefully this summer will be a great one, one which I progress instead of being lazy.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Crit, Dragon Boats, and a Bit Inadequate
I finished my Flash project for this semester. Though, as much I'm not satisfied with it I found that I got a pretty good review. Probably, would pass that class with flying colors. Now that's one less thing to worry about, now I need to focus on my Sociology final, so, lets hope things bode well for me this weekend. Can't wait for Tuesday to pass.
Along, with other events going on today was the Dragon Boat team. At least half the team is formed now, which is pretty cool meaning more or less is going to happen. Now we just need to win, but first we need to practice.
Despite, all the positivity that occurs today I can't feel a bit inadequate. As much I keep pushing myself I still feel a bit cowardly. I keep telling myself I should say something at least to clarify myself, at the end at least I know there was no misunderstanding or at least if there was it'll be clear. Hopefully, I can gain some confidence within one week's time.
At least tomorrow will be Looptopia, ya!
Along, with other events going on today was the Dragon Boat team. At least half the team is formed now, which is pretty cool meaning more or less is going to happen. Now we just need to win, but first we need to practice.
Despite, all the positivity that occurs today I can't feel a bit inadequate. As much I keep pushing myself I still feel a bit cowardly. I keep telling myself I should say something at least to clarify myself, at the end at least I know there was no misunderstanding or at least if there was it'll be clear. Hopefully, I can gain some confidence within one week's time.
At least tomorrow will be Looptopia, ya!
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